Similar to Reality?
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Archived from the IMDb Discussion Forums — Equilibrium
elmuano — 10 years ago(June 16, 2015 09:09 PM)
For some odd reason I requested the day off to just do nothing but rest. I took a nap in the middle of the day for a couple hours. I can't really remember what dream I had but I remember I started to feel this intense emotional feeling that I used to feel when I was a kid. It was overwhelming and I found myself scared of it, like I knew it was a dream and that happiness was so high that I was gonna wake up depressed. But I manned up and managed to feel a little bit, however due to the activity of my will in this I woke up shortly after. I had to do something and almost forgot about it then decided to re-watch this movie.
Now I realized my decision to take the day off randomly was like when the main character gets out of routine by using his toothbrush out of synchronicity and then breaks his daily dose. And my dream was pointing something out for me, and then the movie. I realized I don't feel anything in real life, in my daily life. My few emotions are petty and mostly ruled by fear of others. Concerned about what others might think of me and obsessed with my self image. But the real me is sleeping deep inside, wanting to feel.
I don't want to die like a cold zombie. I want to feel what I had a glimpse off in that dream. I'm not sure if I did feel when I was little, maybe I did.
But feeling is not merely dependent on a decision to feel, a decision from the brain. It can't be tackled directly, it is very delicate, elusive.
I don't know what I'm gonna do but I have to find a way to that dream world of emotions, maybe by stop giving importance to stupid daily actions of others that upset me, or stop pretending for the benefit of others. Stop pretending to be important.
I don't know how to say all I want to say, but if others have a similar feeling please respond to this.
We might be in the Matrix after all. -
wiggityp — 9 years ago(June 15, 2016 12:40 AM)
Lean in to those feelings. The good and the bad. Serious power and more importantly serious peace await you if you do.
All you have to do is recognize your feelings as they arise within. Maybe identify/analyze some of the what and why of them but mostly I believe it's enough just to acknowledge them as they occur and accept that the occurrence
is happening
. You don't have to like them, and some of them you obviously won't but if you just acknowledge that they are happening you will open yourself up to a whole new world of meaning and potential satisfaction.
We humans can infinitely mutate our thoughts and if we persist we can intellectualize our way into or out of just about any position in life and end up thinking it's the right place for us to be. Our feelings however, can not be changed consciously, only experienced in real time and
maybe
correctly identified by our thoughts. But as I said, I believe that in most instances it is enough to simply to feel them and leave it at that.
Good luck to you in your awakenings. Keep leaning in.