I Used to feel a little about some things
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138 — 1 year ago(May 08, 2024 04:25 AM)
I Used to feel a little about some things
but that has diminished, especially about how I handled the Monicah situation last year. Bitch was avting crazy when my mom was dying. I wanted her to leave me alone.
If I attack you, it's definitely because you attacked me in some way. I don't give a **** if you think the degree is too extreme in response. I disagree, especially since I get it feom all around. If you contribute to the mob mentality, I see you as part of a greater whole.
Cope and seethe.
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/. — 1 year ago(May 08, 2024 04:32 AM)
I have seen the error of my ways. It's time to get my life together. I applied for three jobs last week and have an interview coming up this Friday. Wish me luck.
To all the women of the board, I offer you my deepest sincere apologies. I've been horrible to most of you, the way I used you all as human shields, hyper focused on single coerced compliments only to throw them back in your face later, the doxxing, the posting of private conversations. I understand I can never make it up to you. Going forward I vow to do my best to respect the women in my life, online or otherwise. Starting with my sister, who has put up with my bullshit for longer than anyone deserves.
Anna, you're actually wonderful person who's been through a lot in life. Experiencing loss isn't easy and I hope we can at least have civil TV conversations going forward.
Loki, I apologize for overreacting. To a stupid emoji. Losing your friendship was one of the biggest mistakes of my life.
Monicah, you were the closest thing I've had to a relationship in a long time and I threw it all away over petty bullshit. I wasn't able to accept that you're a fully formed person with your own thoughts and opinions outside of myself. I wish nothing but the best for you and your child.
Klam, I don't even know why I'm mad at you but insulting your body, past issues, and relationships was completely out of line. You've given me more chances than I deserved and I blew every single one of them.
Warren, **** off. You're still a piece of ****.
To the African American community - even though I didn't use the hard r, it was still unacceptable. Living in the deep south I've seen racism up close and for some reason I still choose to use slurs against your people. I've donated $100 to the NAACP as a down payment to atone for my sins.
All the other older women of the board, with age comes wisdom and grace. I was too immature and blind to see that before. I do now. If I listened to you ladies I would have been in a much better place long ago. Keep living your best lives, my queens.
While this is not an excuse for my past behavior, therapy helped me realize that I've been living a lie. I've come out as a proud gay man. The repressed shame about my sexuality was causing me to lash out at women over and over again. This will never happen again.
I love each and every one of you except Warren. You've all been a part of my life for so long. Whatever abuse you continue to throw at me, I will take it with grace and dignity from this day forward. Unless it comes from Warren. You're still on my **** list, buddy.
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